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Tuesday, July 24, 2007
It's been a while since I've posted a blog that was about my life in any real way, usually it's just picture collections from a great night out with the Crue or something of that nature. So here it is, sort of an overview of my life- what is going on, annoyances, friendships, family, relationships, beer, and kittens. :P
~As many of you know, I moved to Mass. with Count in late January. We had a kickass time and met some great people while we were up there, but my family needed me so i hopped on a greyhound and came back down to florida. Soon after i got back my grandfather passed away, days later my sister had her first baby (and my first blood-related nephew) Jaiden John. Life has been hectic in the household, mainly due to all of the above said occurances, but it is finally beginning to stable out.
~My Crue means the world to me, it would be too much to type for me to thank each of you individualy, but you know who you are. Count is more like a brother to me than a friend. Rizz is one of my closest and best friends, and one of the most amazing women Ive ever known. Jen and I are going on 10 years of being best friends, so there is no doubt how much i love the hell out of her. Missy and I have grown closer over all the years that we have known eachother, to where now she is part of my "Crue" and someone I love very dearly. Angel has become a great part of my life since we met, her being an incredibly strong and beautiful person that changes me for the better. Danielle and I only became friends a couple of months ago, yet she's already one of my favorite people to be around. I've met very few people that can knock me out of a bad mood just by conversation, but she is one of them. Like i said before, it would be too much for me to name off everybody, but the people i consider my friends are my Crue, and just because i didnt name you personally, doesnt mean you arent. I could be told today that these people are the only friends i will ever have in my life and i would die with a smile on my face.
~When it comes to my love-life, the story is the same as always. I don't want to simply say that i like the "wrong girls", b/c they arent bad people at all. It is just that the situation is always the same. It takes a lot for me to actually dig a girl enough to want to date her, or have a relationship all out. Yet when i start seeing a girl, and our feelings are mutual, they leave me for an ex of theirs. If it isn't an ex, then it is the guy they liked before me that is finally willing to give them the time of day. With the exception of a month long relationship with a close friend (at the time), I have been single for a reallly long time. I don't truly count that relationship, b/c it wasnt even really one. It was two close friends that were tired of being single and figured they would give it a shot. Even kissing her felt awkward. I dont know how it always happens this way with women, but it truly does suck. I don't want to be somebody's second choice, but a lot of women have tried to make me into that. Their "consolation prize" that they will be with if it doesnt work out with their first choice.
~Drama... I have completely cut drama out of my life. I love almost every aspect of my life, and I dont want anybody bringing it down. I have had to cut out friends from my life to be able to live a life without drama, but it's been worth it. I get annoyed when people start telling me stories like "Can you believe Johnny is dating Mandy even tho Mandy dated Billy back when... blah blah blah!" I don't even know these people, why should i care what they are up to?!? It sounds kind of dickish, but truthfully, i only care about my family and my Crue, and they go hand in hand.
Well I'm done with my little overview of life for now. Leave some love & tell me what ya think if you want.
<3 Much love.
Current mood:  content Current music: "Life is Beautiful" Sixx A.M.
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
10:16AM
Yea, so the party satursay night was crazy. Cops got called, i was forced to dbe a dick and keep ppl quiet, and some drama shit went down. It's understandable why the shit went down, but still. All Rizz and I wanted to do was throw a party for us to enjoy time with our friends, and then look what happens... In the end, Myself, Rizz, and Count all basically decided that was more or less our retirement party from partying. It's just not the same kind of fun it used to be. We're gonna enjoy the sober life. Friday night Count and Rizz came over to watch a movie and some tv, just to hang out and have some laughs. And to be honest, spendin time with them like that was more fun than ive had in a damn long time. And i'm lookin forward to havin more fun like that with friends. I know the fact that i wont be "partying" like i had been for so long will make me loose friends, but that's cool. They can do their thing, and I'll do mine. I have a business im trying to start, and a life i want to begin. And im psyched to begin it all with a clear mind.
~Baron
Current music: The Path ~ HIM
Friday, May 25, 2007
Rizz and I are throwin a killer fuckin party tomorrow night over at Sandman's, so far we already have 27 confirmed and about 12 maybe's for the ppl goin. It's gonna be crazy. I think we all need this :))
Current music: Dr. FeelGood - Motley Crue
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Wow, it's been a damn long time since i have posted anything in here. Last time i did was when I first found out i was definetly moving to Mass. Alot has happened since then, far too much to go into detail about but i'll give a brief overlay of most of it.
Count and I made our train-trip to Mass, leaving a lot of shit behind us in Spring Hill unsolved. We had an incredible time there, life is so much different when you are suddenly thrown into a place where only 3 people know who you are, and they are the people you live with. Then i got a call from my parents telling me that my pregnant sister is doing well and that the due-date was coming up. Within the next phone call i found out my grandfather was not doing well at all, and that they had gotten Hospice to come in now. I knew that it was just time for me to come back, and at that time i thought i would only be coming back for 6 months at the most. I took a Greyhound all the way from Chicopee, Mass. to Tampa, and that isnt something I wish upon anybody. It was one HELL of an experience, but i would never do it again. I got back here and it seemed like everything had changed. It was nearly all the same things that i had seen over the past ten years, yet completely different. I'm still having a difficult time figuring out exactly what it is, or how to describe it. Anyways, my grandfather passed away soon after i got back, which is still affecting my family greatly. Two days after he passed my sister had Jaiden, my first nephew. He's doing great, and he is a hell of a lot of fun to watch grow. After all of this, i decided that i wont give a timeline whatsoever about moving up north. Hell, i might not move up north again until im married and want to start a family for all I know.
2007 has brought more changes than any year in my life thusfar, with the exeption of the "love-life". It has been a damn long time since I've had a real relationship. I am the type of person that doesnt really like to be alone, but I wont be with somebody JUST to be with somebody, hence me being single for so long. I have recently been getting to know somebody -a friend ive known a while- which seems to be goin well. I'm diggin her, smart, beautiful, interesting, funny, all that good stuff. lol But you never know with these things. As cliche as it sounds, I have become one of those people who has been screwed around with enough in the past that I hold up a wall from time to time. I realllllly dont like that about myself. I'm the type of person that doesnt have "rules" when getting to know somebody that i want to date, like the whole "You have to wait 2 days after a date before you call the girl, that way she'll wonder whether or not you like her." Ive heard this shit for years from people and it just seems rediculous to me. If i like somebody, i act like it, or say so. Doing otherwise just makes things complicated. (wow, i just realized how much ive written)
Now I'm just rambling cause, well, sometimes it's good for ya to just ramble on and on about whatever runs through your brain. I'll try to keep on updating this thing, even tho I think Rizz is the only person that tends to read em. Take it sleazy, folks...
~Baron
(btw, leave a comment if you actually read this, just so i know)
Current mood:  complacent Current music: Life Is Beautiful by Nikki Sixx
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
7:33PM
So Count and I are officially moving to Mass. in a little under two weeks. It's crazy how quickly everything is happening. It's gonna fucking KILL ME to have to leave my family and Erika and my close friends, but i know this is the best thing for me right now. I'm flying Erika up there for her 21st b-day tho!!!
I'll update more later when i can think straight cuz i have a thousand things running through my head about all of this...
Current music: "Goodbye To Romance" ~ Ozzy Osbourne
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
4:45PM
So my brother Christian made me an offer I can't refuse (a little play on words i suppose). He offered for me to make a fresh start living with him in Mass. He told me i deserve a hell of a lot better than what this place can offer me, so he wants me to move up there and live with he and his wife. He said there are no excuses for why i dont go up there unless it's simply b/c i wouldnt want to. He doesnt want me to worry at all about money to get there or live there. He's gonna pay for me to move there, and then let me have his loft above his house (which is also a totally pimped-out gameroom). He's gonna give me a job that pays FAR more than any job i could get here, and live there rent-free. Within 6 months i could buy a condo up there if i wanted.
I have a lot of things that make me want to stay here, but I keep thinking that the greatest risk in life is not taking one. It would only be a 2 hour plane ride to get back here if i ever needed to. I wish Count and Rizz could come with me, but i know it couldn't happen. They have a lot to stay here for. The only thing that i would have to figure out before i could leave is getting my dad a new job. It's so tough on me to think about him trying to do this job himself b/c of his health, so i couldnt just abandon him. I'd have to know that he is okay and can make money without risking his health.
It is a lot to think about, but i really am seriously thinking about doing it...
~Baron
Tuesday, January 2, 2007
7:36PM
So yea, Christina and I are over. There is a long story behind it all, but ive thought about it enough in my own head to not want to write it all here too. We weren't even really a "couple" anyways. Nothing about us ever was, we were two old friends that tried dating mainly cause everybody had told us for years to give it a shot.
Asher and Erika split as well, so our new year has had a crazy start. But i really do think it'll all be for the best.
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
11:36PM
"Do you pull me up just to push me down again?!?"
That sums up how i feel... so it's a small entry
Current music: How you remind me- Nickleback
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
11:27PM
Every day seems to just meld together lately. There is no Monday, tuesday, wednesday, etc... It is all just one long episode that concludes on friday evenings when i finally get away from home and work. Then, it all starts over again. Sad thing is that i used to spend my whole week lookin forward to friday nights with "the Crue". Even if i knew all we would do is sit around have some beers and laugh over stupid shit, it was always the greatest time to me. But nowadays it seems like nobody but Count and myself want that anymore.
Saturday, July 15, 2006
4:58AM
I had a talk with Count tonight that helped me a lot. I dunno why, but sometimes being able to say something aloud to somebody can make things so much clearer than when you just think it to yourself... It's given me a lot to think about... All for the best in the end...
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
7:04PM
It's funny how the people in life who always say they will be there for you no matter what anytime you need them, are typically the first to walk away when you need em by your side... Regardless how many times you have been there for them.
This refers to a few ppl.... if you read it and you think you may be someone it's referring to, then you probably are, so dont ask...
(Im just in an annoyed mood)
Current mood:  annoyed
Thursday, May 11, 2006
5:24AM
K, so i was gonna start writing a journal entry that would have had a little bit of an annoyed tone to it, but i had to go and read Erika's latest post and it made me happy to hear how happy she is. lol
I went out to Dunkin Donuts tonight with my friend/ ex-gf Jess, and her sis and sis's b/f. It was kickass to chill with her again cuz we havent seen eachother since we broke up. Somebody there even asked us why we broke up and neither of us had any real answer, it just wasn't there i suppose. It was kinda random cuz i have barely heard from her until today when we talked and she said she missed me and wanted to make plans for friday (before she realized she already had plans for then), so we decided to go get coffee instead tonight (last night). You'd think that hanging out with her tonight would make me all happy cause i hadn't seen her in forever, but for some reason it kinda made me depressed afterwards. Also, it reminded me how much i hate being single, and with exception of the week and a half that Jess and I were together, i have been single for nearly 6 months.
It isnt foriegn territory for me to be single for a decently long time, its only different this time b/c everybody around me is in love with somebody and all happy n shit. Dont get me wrong, anybody who knows me knows that my friends' happiness means the fuckin world to me and i am incredibly happy for all of em. But Dane Cook said it best when he said being the only one of your friends not in love is like walking in the rain past a party that everybody but you was invited to. Seriously almos every one of my friends are included. lol Count and Josie have their one year (Marriage) anniversary coming up on the 15th. Rizzle and Asher are attatched at the hip style in-love. Jen and John have their dyfunctional-yet- happy relationship. Missy is getting married next month. Even one of my more recent ex's is now prego (no, not mine so dont ask!! haha).
Hopefully, dealing with all the crazy women ive dated (or at least 98% of the women ive dated were crazy) I'll catch a break and find a decent one.
On another note (a quick note) I cant stand when you are there for ppl for advice all the time, picking them up every time they are down and being there for them to talk to about anything. But when you need a little advice about life, or maybe at least an outsiders point of view.... you are stuck typing in an online journal. No offense to whoever the hell actually read all of this. It wasnt directed towards any one person or persons in general. But it includes a great majority of my friends- and always has. Saddest part of it all is that even if it never changes, i will still be there for my friends the way i always have been. You may say that makes me a sucker, I say it makes me... well, me.
Take it sleazy...
(btw, leave a comment or somethin if you do read this so i know if ppl are readin it)
Current mood:  blah Current music: Hinder- Get Stoned
Friday, March 31, 2006
6:28PM
Damn, i feel bad cuz Missy wants us to go hang out at her house tonight, but she lives like 45 minutes away, and if we go there we wont get there till wicked late. And i have to be back here in the morning to go shopping with my mom so i cant stay out there for the night like usual. She doesnt seem to understand that the plans just arent gonna work out tonight. Jens b/f john was supposed to drive but he wont be outta work till 11, so we wouldnt get there till past midnight, then we would have to leave just an hour or two later. I dunno, it bugs me to know an old friend is mad over this, but at the same time she is a little too upset over it. She keeps saying that we will just go somewhere else to party and forget all about her. Ugh, its annoying me...
Sunday, March 5, 2006
So yea... another very (VERY) unexpected twist in my life. I know what i wrote in my last entry a couple days ago, but idk now. All i will say is an old, very close best friend of mine kinda shocked me friday night. Not necessarily in a bad way, just she did something that took me by suprise. I cant talk about it here cuz i havent even talked to Rizz about it yet, and she is typically the person i talk to about everything. Cuz she kicks ass and gives poop advice. (in Kevster/Rizzle language, poop= good)
I swear, i love life tho. Every day suprises me in some way... and that kicks some severe ass. I hate the thought of knowing what every day will bring me.
Current mood:  confused Current music: Endless Dark-- HIM
Saturday, February 18, 2006
So yep, i got my new tat done yesterday! It hurt like hell, im not gonna lie. lol At least certain parts of it did... here's a pic...
 Shitty pic, but oh well....
Thursday, February 16, 2006
11:55PM
Well, looks like i will be gettin my next tat tomorrow like planned. I just have to go there around 130 to see what Frank came up with for the font style and all that good shit. Only downfall (so far) for this weekend is that Christina isnt able to come visit friday night like planned. I guess she wont be getting her new car till sunday. Oh well, that just means i have somethin to do next friday night instead. Im sure me n Jen are gonna be havin a few drinks tomorrow cuz she is comin with me to watch me get tatted. Either way, im lookin forward to it.
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Woohooooo!!! My brother said he is gonna cover me at work Saturday night, which means 1). I get to go to the End Of The Rope concert with Erika "E-Rizzle" Awesomeface, Brianna, Ashlynn, and whoever else may come along saturday night. And 2). Provided i have enough money, I will be getting my next ink done friday. Its gonna be on my lower stomache, so i will need a couple days off of work so it can start healing. I already have friday and sunday nights off, so taking saturday night off will make it so i have 3 days to let it start to heal. Im fuckin psyched!!! My "sister" Christina is coming in to town friday night, so i get to see her too!! We are like family, but i havent gotten to see her since New years eve. If it all goes to plan, this is going to shape up to be the best damn weekend i have had since the old days of Livestock. (Which may be coming back to Pasco next year, btw)
Yeah, i know it seems lame to get this psyched, but this weekend will include all of my favorite things. Tattoo's, beer, close friends, and live music. Doesnt get much better than that mother-fuckers!
Current mood:  excited Current music: HIM- Souls on Fire
Wednesday, February 8, 2006
Im startin to feel like i'm at a stalemate in life nowadays. I need a change, which in the past usually just meant some weird new haircut or a new tattoo or something random like that. Its different now. I already know the things i need to do to make myself happier in some ways. For starters i need a different job (for sure) so i can get a car, and soon enough go in on a place with a friend or two. But aside from the obvious, something else needs to change. I dont quite know what it is yet tho. The last time i felt like this was when i was 15 wearing clothes i didnt like and listening to music that was accepted by my direct peers at the moment. That was your typical "finding yourself" type of thing. Figuring out what it is you like and then just doing it. I feel like i need to do that again. Problem is, i like the music i listen to now, and im comfortable with how i look. I think i need to find new things to do or somethin like that. I cut down on drinking from before so that i now only have a beer maybe one night a week, so it isnt like i need to stop "partying" or any of that shit. I just need something new i think.
Sadly, i actually know that once i get my next tat i will feel a lot better. Its odd but getting tattooed is like therapy for my soul. The way i feel during, and after i get a piece done is like nothing i can describe. Hopefully i'll get my next one soon.
"I Love That Fuckin' Bitch!!" ~That is one quote that can always make me laugh!!
Current mood:  contemplative Current music: nothing at the moment
Tuesday, February 7, 2006
Hahaa, Rizzle just now realized my mood from last weeks update said "horny". I dunno why, i just found that funny... :P
Most of shit in life is the same, al good n whatnot. Hangin out with Bri more often has kicked ass. She's a hell of a lotta fun to chill with. So yea, things have been pretty much the same, so there isnt much for me to update about.
I think im gonna spend some time single for a bit. I may go on a date or something here or there, but overall i think a few months of singleness will do me good. My past 2 relationships were completely different than any i had in the past, which probably just has to do with getting older or something. Especially considering i was single for about 8 months before i met Allison. So yea, single time for me...
I want my next tat soooooooon. Im going fuckin nuts. Ive had tattoo fever for about 2 months now. Anytime i get stressed i think about how great it would be to get tatted. If you dont have a tat then you dont know what i mean. Its such a release. Sure, it hurts or w/e, but at the same time you never feel more relaxed than after a couple hours of gettin inked.
That's all i have to say about that....
Current mood:  mischievous
Friday, January 27, 2006
Life has been starting to settle down nowadays (finally). Not so much drama n all that shit. I think its cuz of the people i am focusing my life on more, and the people i am focusing my life on less. I wont name the ppl who im givin a shit less about, mainly cuz anybody reading this already knows. lol I've been hangin out w/ Miss Erika more now that she has a mode of transportation so we can chill. Somethin about bein around her just makes me happy, and makes me not stress about anything in life. I dunno, i guess thats just one more reason she is my best friend. (I know you're readin this, and you know i love the hell outta you) :P Ive also been hangin out with Brianna and Jen more often which has been fun. The only thing that ever gets to me is Jen being a magnet for drama. She seems to see it, and walk directly into it.
Tonight is the Crossbreed/ End of the Rope show at The State Theatre!!! Its gonna kick some major ass. Ive never seen either band live before, even tho i've loved Crossbreed for years. As of right now it is Me, Erika, Count, Ken, and Brianna going. Im not sure if Bri is coming with us, or taking her car cuz apparently she got it back from the mechanics yesterday. I guess we'll see. But right now im gonna go drink a damn beer cuz i just got off work and i have the night off.
Take it sleazy, people...
Current mood:  horny Current music: Same Ol' Situation-- Motley Crue
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